I plan full conversations in my mind when I can’t sleep at night. Of things I’ll never say, things I’ll never hear, and things I’ll never let leave the safe solitary of my mind. Maybe it’s because I get caught up in my thoughts of how I would desire them to go vs. the reality of how they actually would play out. If I let these thoughts leave my mind, I enter a world of expectations vs. reality. A world of potential possibilities and disappointments. That’s why these conversations remain deep-seated in my mind. For fear my expectations won’t meet my reality.
But, I shouldn't live that way. I shouldn't live in fear of my own expectations.
"Things didn’t work out because, well, greater things were in the works. It’s so difficult while we’re blind and hurting and don’t know which way is up. But, if you have faith in anything, have faith in the fact that the universe has a beautiful way of straightening things out far better than we ever could. You may not see it today or tomorrow, but you will look back in a few years and be absolutely perplexed and awed by how every little thing added up and brought you somewhere wonderful– or where you always wanted to be. You will be grateful that things didn’t work out the way you once wanted them to."
Things don't work out sometimes how we imagine. Sometimes we can't even figure out the reason why. But, we can't let this fear hinder us from doing things we desire.